I have nothing to write about today, and I’m sure this will be the first thing I ever write that will literally be under 5 minutes.
Rejoice, because this will not be a regular occurrence.
But today I wanted to share a brief moment I had today.
I struggled to get up today which was frustrating because I had this well-structured idea of what I wanted my day to be like. Additionally, I feel like I’m waiting on God for something to happen, so in many ways I feel exhausted and quite worn out, so getting up has been considerably more difficult.
Nonetheless, I pushed through and woke up to finish a few of the essential tasks I had to do today.
One of those tasks was to shoot an overdue campaign video with an outstanding global brand. This year has been interesting comparatively to last because it’s felt slower than ever, and this campaign in contrast to last year has been only one of the few I’ve done so far this year, and while working on my script and storyboard, I caught myself in an attitude.
Admittedly I realised I felt somewhat annoyed with God, like all this time I have whilst doing nothing, like why couldn’t you give me all the opportunities like you did last year?
Those were the whispers of my heart and I dare not actually agree with them.
The truth is that little moment for me showed me just where I was, and I was ashamed.
Now there is no real shame in these moments. Of course, these things happen, and i’m happy that I can have a healthy discourse in my heart with God, I mean after all these emotions are best shared with him, so I’m okay with that. However, I was disappointed that I had for a moment forgotten just how far I’ve come.
I paused and began to pray.
As my eyes shut, I was reminded of my good health, my overstocked fridge and my beautiful home— which in all it’s expense is provided for (There’s a story to share about the crazy Journey God has me on, but i’ll share that one day).
I was reminded of the people in my life and the array of cameras I once could never afford sitting in my spare room.
As I prayed I realised that in the midst of my selfish desires, I had denied all that is right in right now. And so today as I write this, my only hope is to encourage you all that today is indeed — No matter how not great it feels, today is indeed enough.
Do not allow the illusions of a moment far gone, to rob you of the blessings you in fact have right now— Do not allow it.
Fix your gaze, fix your focus and like myself— Fix your attitude.
If at all there is any truth, it’s the reality that you are not forgotten, you are not suddenly out of sight or away from his face, God is with you in all that feels forgotten.
Now is enough.
That’s all.
If at all I could encourage you, it is to remind you that timelessness requires timeliness. So don’t miss it right now because of the longing back then, because there is more to come, but you need to be who you need to be right now.
If you’re like me, then take a moment to speak to your soul, your mind and body, and tell it the truth of what it denies.
There is more, don’t get an attitude.
(I’m aware this may not even read well, but that’s okay. I just needed to send this out to someone)
Love you guys!
Beautiful reflection
This is the first post I’m reading from you and... thank you. ❤️